The “Chaos” in Me


https://robinsdairy.blogspot.com/2018/10/the-chaos-in-me.html
4th Oct 2017, Vellore 

Day 2 at CMC Vellore. Assisting my brother for a medical checkup. When I entered here yesterday, there was lot anxiety in me.  I had made that long journey from Jamshedpur to Chennai to Vellore even without a firm appointment.  But it was because of Jebaraj, my Sales Manager at the local Mahindra dealership, we could crack the appointment on day 1 itself. Jebaraj, thank you so much!
I never seen such a sight in my life ever. Thousands of  of patient and their fatigued relatives moving helter skelter in the confusing corridors of CMC . There was Chaos all around. Someone said more 10,000 patients from India and abroad gets attended every day!

Then the defining moment of consultancy with our Dr happened.  Before the interaction I still held on to the ambitious plan that perhaps I may still have the chance to take my 6th Oct flight back to Dhaka.

Reality seeps in! You need to do the twelve test, consult 2 specialists before 9th, and meet me on 10th Oct with all reports. I can’t say anything before that – said the Dr.  I could realise the ordeals had begun.  Beta Suru Ho Ja ..i said to myself.  I could see hundreds of patients waiting at each of these points of blood sample collection, X Ray etc. However, we had a good start. With the help of Jebaraj, we couple manage almost 6 of the test on Day 1. I can honestly admit, had there been no local support what we did in 2 hours would have taken 5 days! Checked in at a local hotel in the evening.

Day 2 was not bad either. Started the day at 6 am with the fasting blood test, and continues all well during the day with the other tests.  
But in the last 24 hours, certain things have changed. The huge rush of patients did not bother me much. Things around me that looked “CHAOTIC” yesterday looked cool today. The anxious faces now looked like faces gleaming with “HOPE”. I did NOT find myself as STRANGER in the confusing corridors of CMC Vellore.

When I did a retrospection with these key works – Chaotic, Stranger, Hope, something struck me. Everything looked “Chaotic” because there was chaos within “Me”. When the Chaos within me had gone, the faces looked gleaming with “Hope” and not “disquiet with anxiety” . The thousands of patients who could reach this far had already won half of the battle with their ailment, they could feel they are now in “ safe hands of CMC doctors “.

So many time we have experienced situations when we are stressed , feeling low , disappointed . We feel pity for ourselves and  keep reverberating  "why me". We look outward that "Once" things  around will improve , I will feel better and lucky.  

Very strongly we feel perhaps things around me has to “change for better”. But it’s the opposite that is more true –“when I Change , every things around me has already changed for better”
Good Day!

Regards 
Robin

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